you know what? i've been positive but right now i need to moan.
IT IS NOT FAIR THAT THIS HAS HAPPENED. dont get me wrong i know it could be worse, but it could be a hell of a lot better too. im so fucking sick of being tired and having these fucking bags. they leak they smell they make me itch and i HATE THEM.
I learnt to live with colitis and i'd do anything to go back to bleeding 20 times a day and swallowing 30 tablets a day. that was a form of a life i could handle. this isn't a life i want i'm not sure how much more i can take if im honest.
if anyone can find some positives to this, do share them because im close to giving up.
stay strong mike! its a price to pay for a better long term life. Take each day as it comes and scream when you wanna scream, and be sad when you want to be sad, and sometimes have a sense of humor about it all and laugh...and eventually this journey will make sense in the bigger picture of your life.
ReplyDeletewhen there are hard times, try to think about them as a part of your memoirs. where will this ordeal fall in a 30 chapter book. maybe it will get its own chapter, but think of the other 29.
lots of love
Thanks Steph, it's just so hard picturing this getting any easier
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